I don't know how many times I can say I'm sorry. You've been waiting so patiently for me to give you a little attention, but I continue to divert my attention elsewhere. Not once did you scream at me or belittle me for such neglect. I turned a blind eye to your quiet tears and for this I should be punished.
I have no excuse. Giving you the attention you deserve shouldn't take that much of my time. I realized last night while being forced to watch a screening of "The Nanny Diaries" that you are my privilege. Seeing your sad face as I shut down my computer everyday should have elicited at least one interaction over the past month... but I was too selfish. So, instead of hiring you a "nanny" or continuing to make false promises about how I'll be better, all I can do is say I am sorry.
Where we go from here is anyone's guess, but your my responsibility and I need to do what's best for you. Tell me what you need? Tell me how I can make you feel better and mend your wounded ego? I'm listening... even if no one else is.
LOL. I can relate. While I still love the connections I make when I do in fact post, I'm finding it harder and harder to give my blog any TLC these days...
Posted by: Stephanie | December 16, 2007 at 09:45 PM